Well we went on Friday anyway, just to check out what was on and I was already in cyber gear, and it turned out to be a Rolling Stones tribute band night and I turned around and heard a group of girls muttering that I was fat and disgusying, so I asked them what their problem was and they were like 'do your parents know you go out dressed like that? I can't even look at you, it's sickening.' so what with recently losing my dad and being that badly insulted - I ran out in tears.

Then I went to a kebab shop in Wellingborough and some drunk 40-something woman sat next to me and starts going 'oooh like you need to eat a kebab - you're fat enough already, I'd have stopped eating months ago if I was your weight.' and carried on in a similar way for about 10 minutes then some guy jumped in and said 'excuse me, but I happen to think she's gorgeous' and some other random bloke jumped in and goes 'well i think she's an ugly, fat heffer...'
So I ran out crying yet again.

This is what I was wearing. Surely I didn't deserve such harsh words, but tell me honestly, am I too fat for cybergear?

babes you look fine. The only reason they said it was they dont understand Cyber. As long as you have confidence in yourself fuck what other people think.

I think you look lovely xx but you should really where white fluffie with that outfit hehehehe

I only have blue or pink fluffies and I thought blue went best.

And now I don't feel good about myself. I was gunna come to the Angel this weekend but I doubt I'll be coming or if I am, I doubt I'll be in cybergear.

you are fine just the way you are.

You had better come to the angel on march the 10th in cyber gear, i will be and its my birthday. If your not i will be hurt

I think u look lovley and are Gorgeous hunny, don't listern to them stupid idiots they don't understand about Cyber and they r sad cos they dont wanna be different.
Don't let them get to you hunny serouisly, FU** them, its all about how u feel.
U BETTER COME TO HIGH VOLTAGE THIS SATURDAY HUNNY, U KNOW WE R ALL NUTTERS AND EVERY1 DOES NOT CARE ABOUT WHAT PEOPLE R WEARING, ITS ALL ABOUT THE MUSIC AND HAVING FUN, WE LOVE BEING DIFFERENT AND THERES GONNA BE PEOPLE WEARING CYBER@HIGH VOLTAGE THIS SAT.
C U SATURDAY LUV LITTLE MISS DETONATE XXXXX
P.S. I ALWAYS GET FUNNY LOOKS AND STARES AT IN THE STREETS IN BEDFORD COS I WEAR DIFFERENT CLOTHING, BUT I THINK TO MYSELF WHO CARES COS IM PROUD TO BE ME AND DIFFERENT.

IM PROUD TO BE ME AND DIFFERENT

I am proud to be me

exactly hunny xxxkissxxx

You had better come in cyber on the 10th march or else!!!!

who me hun?

everyone!!!

hi mate have u seen me out ? before i was a raver i had no confidence at all i used to get called annorexic at school and for about 5 years after i left i would not even step out my front door with my legs showing and i would only wear t shirts, then once i started raving i realised that if someone thinks im skinny thats there problem not mine, once id bourght my first cyber out fit and worn it out people would say how nice i looked and it gave me more confidence, now u would not beleave what i go out in, i still get looks and remarks in clubs but never at raves and do u know why? cos were all fookin hardcore, one big family.

it doesent matter what u look like as long as u enjoy ur life xxxx

sorry was tryin to put a pic of me in ? dont know how to do it ???

everyone!!!

what even me? lol! :D


insanemouse,, screw what others say,,, Just do what makes you feel go and go out and have a proper good time ravin!
:D

Agh, don't call me InsaneMouse, I'm InaneMouse - like excessively happy.

But thank you all for you kind comments,
hardasnails, it's this Saturday there's an event on at the Angel isn't there? and I'm so sad you're gunna miss the 14th, can't you pop along for a few hours towards the end? We so need a DJ! And no sign of Triple Ex Productions this time? Cuz I love his videos. He should so video my party in the field that I've advertised in the Bedford forum somewhere under 'DJs Wanted'

And one thing that WILL cheer me up if I get my confidence back up to wear cybergear to HV on Saturday will be having loads of people pose for me as I want to get recognised as a better spotter, and for someone to get some good candid ones of me, or one of the tattoo across my back, cuz it's impossible for me to get one of it!!

Cheers guys, I knew you'd cheer me up.

well im gonna be in cyber as usual so u can take some pics of me, and im sure there will be plently of other spotters to mashed up has a good camra and im sure ull get to meet him xxx

see u on sat xx

Bollox to what people in Bedford say - the majority of them are narrow minded twannies (I live here so I can vouch for that!). Just wear what you feel most comfortable and stuff the other plonkers! High Voltage nights are completely different from other nites in Bedford, they are incredibly friendly and you will not have any trouble at all. I think you should still wear the cyber if you want to! xx

You should wear whatever you wanna wear and be confidant and comfortable in what you have on. Dont let others dictate how you should feel, look or think - wear what you want, how you want with pride.... Dont be a sheep - Baaaaa

u can take some pics of me, and im sure there will be plently of other spotters to mashed up has a good camra and im sure ull get to meet him

Aye, I'll find you in a crowd and expect you to strike a pose for me then!

And yeah, I Know mashed up. He goes to loads of the WH? nights in Northampton - We always wind up with photos of each other! Lol.

sweetheart, you look gorgeous in cybergear. they were just jealous that they didn;t have the bottle to wear something like that. i promise that no one at hv will give you any 'tude. don;t let these idiots have any more control over your life, you were happy to wear cybergear before and to be honest if you're having a crisis of confidence i can;t think of a better place than hv to build it back up again.
by the way, you're NOT fat - i know fat (i used to be knocking on 25 stone) and you're not it. and even if you were - who cares as long as you are enjoying yourself.
going to have to stop typing now as i'm getting pretty steamed about it. please come along to hv and have a top evening with some proper party people.